Old dog seeks new trick 9

[Old Dog]

I think security would take a dim view of that I'm afraid. And I don't think there's much chance of rejoining either.

I used to play 2nd guitar. The guy that does it now is usually a bass player and actually replaced me on bass in another band I was in when I joined this lot the first time round.

[Vanilla]

Are you going to look for another band?

BTW have a great time.

V

[Vanilla]

OD you ok?

V

[Old Dog]

Hi Vanilla. Thank you for checking up on me.

I'm back home after three weeks. WAW texted me and asked I wanted picking up at the train station. She knows how pissed off I am with her, as she usually just asks if I'm on time, but I said yes. I don t want to be beholden to her but I also don't want to spend an hour in the bus station and another 50 mins on the bus.

I went to see my old band on Monday with a mate and it was great. I stayed overnight at his house and got a life there and back from a work colleague. It was funny, my mate chatted so much I didn't get time to tell him my 'news'.

Wednesday is mindfullness day but I've found the last few sessions haven't been as useful as before. I either almost fall asleep or my mind just wanders at will. I have a better experience with the Mindspace app. I'll keep going though I think because it could be that I'm just so tired and run down due to illness.

Yesterday evening was a leaving session down the pub for two lovely ladies who have been pushed out the door by work. They can't wait to go now though and we all had a good time without getting hammered.

My plan to buy a car this weekend has been postponed because my no claims discount is over two years old and therefore the premium has rocketed. Even the insurance company I work for quoted me a stupid figure. I'll have to check out the specialists.

This weekend I have to broach the fact that so far she hasn't paid a penny into the joint account ... again.

We've also been given a provisional dat for S15's surgery in three weeks time.

Oh and I still haven't finished Train's story.

[Old Dog]

So WAW has came up to me to see if I'm free. I was posting on here so I said I wasn't. Finally we had this discussion.

Discussed the logistics of S15’s upcoming surgery. Dates, where to stay etc. And then we went on to another difficult discussion.

She is anxious not to cause unrest, especially in the next month when S15 has is op. I said I understand, I am here for him

She mentioned the Skype call I had with Elliott. During the call I had asked if WAW was in or had gone to watch football. S15 went to find out. WAW said she tried to only go out locally maybe for an hour or two but not 100% of the time. She said it caused unrest in them and I didn’t need to check up on her. I said I was just chatting with S15.

Apparently OM works in the next town along now and ‘she could have him round for his tea every night, but that wouldn’t be appropriate’. Damn right!

WAW mentioned if I was having a hard time maybe we could arrange to be at the house at different times but the affair with OM is not blowing over. She doesn’t want to hurt me but there’s nothing she can do about that. Nothing? I held my tongue.

What we said to the boys last October still stands as far as she is concerned. They will not lose either of us blah blah blah.

During these discussions I don’t say too much. She lectures and I say things like I understand, I’m not going to cause a ruction. Maybe that's a bit wet noodleish.

At the end, I brought up the joint account again. She said she finally pad in the same amount as me this morning. I just said good. We can review it after a while. She said it might be tight and she could really afford much more.

I hate her for doing this. For planning this for years and not lifting a finger to try and work on our marriage. Not mentioning it to me at all. For letting it fester until breaking point. Damn her.

[Old Dog]

Oh and I just remembered she said she wasn't being selfish going out and enjoying herself out locally ... most of the time ... for a couple of hours.

She seems to think she is doing everything she can for the boys. Well apart from working on our marriage. That's obviously OK to jettison.

I want to go to bed because I'm so tired mentally, physically, emotionally but I just started crying again and so I can't just yet because she's in it. Yes I must be back at home and not able to detach sufficiently.

[gan]

I don't really know what to say except (((Old Dog)))

You're W makes me mad.

[Old Dog]

Thanks ganb8te. She makes me mad too.

I've been lying awake for a hours thinking how much I hate her and what she's doing now. I think I'll write it down.

[Sotto]

OD, sorry you had a tough night. I hope today will be a better one. Do you have some GAL plans? Glad you have a provisional date for surgery now, and so soon! How long will the recovery period be?

Stay strong lovely OD and decide to have a happy day - whatever your W may be up to (((OD)))

[jim0987]

Sorry to hear that your W is being like that. I dislike that my W lies about her OM but I think in the end its better than having my face rubbed in it.

I hope you have a better day.