Last night we had a function at my sons school. She was rude to me and everyone else there, then after it was over she said "Hey, how about we go out as a family and get some dinner somewhere?" Before I started DB'ing I would have been all over it, but instead I said "Nah, I am not interested, I just want to go home and go to bed". She was instantly upset, stormed off to her car, buckled the kids in (it was her night) and I said goodbye to them and said "Goodbye (her full first name, instead of honey or sweetheart) and she left.
I came home, read the 180 again in the book and am sticking with it. She called earlier today, asking a question that she already knew the answer to, then asked what I was making for dinner. I told her, she said "that sounds SO good" and I just changed the subject. She was sweet as can be on the phone, no fighting, no attitude, just like she was 3 months ago. I am trying to get off this rollercoaster with her, but it's just so damn hard, because the 180 goes against everything I want to do.
ARRRRGGGGHHHH, I just wish I could rewind things and get a do over.
Me: 38 W: 32 S10 D6 T: 10 (02/2004) M: 7 (12/2007) Separation 02/2015 OM confirmed 01/2015, D mentioned 12/2014 D finalized 9/2016
