Your L better is on your side haha. We all have different sides, the way we present ourselves and the way we let ourselves go when no one is watching. But I tell you one thing Toots. You ARE stronger than you'd think. All you are doing/have done, only a very cery strong person can do. Many would've given up long time ago.
Not even seeing your H for so long is incredible to me. This is a very long time, at least to me. Have you ever thought of doing a step to meet him again? Is he far away?
I wish you the best of luck with your settlements.


Me 32 (German) Wife 28
T 3yrs M 2yrs
Moved to US for W
No kids
BD 6/2014
In house separation
Confirmed EA 1/2015
(ongoing since BD)
OM not ready
Real D talk started 1/27/15