Your L better is on your side haha. We all have different sides, the way we present ourselves and the way we let ourselves go when no one is watching. But I tell you one thing Toots. You ARE stronger than you'd think. All you are doing/have done, only a very cery strong person can do. Many would've given up long time ago. Not even seeing your H for so long is incredible to me. This is a very long time, at least to me. Have you ever thought of doing a step to meet him again? Is he far away? I wish you the best of luck with your settlements.
Me 32 (German) Wife 28 T 3yrs M 2yrs Moved to US for W No kids BD 6/2014 In house separation Confirmed EA 1/2015 (ongoing since BD) OM not ready Real D talk started 1/27/15