I think Gogofo has some great insight and is a pretty even read.
Again, I gave drunk or not ML sessions a big part of credit for the connection and walls that started dissolving. If we hadn't had that, I wonder if my H and I would have found the point of it all again. I have no doubt there was a likelihood it could have all just been something physical in an alternate universe nearby. No one wants to see you hurt.
Don't let us and our armchair look at it all rattle you - there's no way to know, your H probably doesn't! But we all agree I think you're on the right track.
Mid 30's Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH D 9/15; NC forever on
