Devotion To A Dream

[phunguy]

I suppose I want to see this apology as the opening of the door? I am continuing to GAL, going out tonight and tomorrow. Creating space and distance. She told me I looked hot this morning. Meeting with my IC on Tuesday next week. It took a while to get a follow up appointment. I suppose I'm just dreading this weekend. Even going out and having fun when I want to do the opposite.

Here's the text she sent yesterday.

"I love and care for you. The emotional roller coaster in this relationship has caused me to put up that wall. All the anger meanness from you, all those embarrassing times cause of your anger. I just stopped trying and held resentments towards you. I'm sorry."

What's odd is I presented the "wall" idea to her a week or so ago before I found the affair and I think Sandi2 presented the idea to me. To hear her use it is interesting. I told her that I've been on an emotional roller coaster, there she is parroting it back to me. Is she just trying to twist words I've used back to me? I'm confused I guess.