Part 14 - Contents may flip without warning

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Well this afternoon got interesting w emailed me on and off and said can I give s a big hug for her, called her for s to speak to her but we had some issues (I don't use a land line as I dont need one but there seemed some issues) anyway w started bouncing back and forth by email and text.

Decided this had the potential to get into pursuit so just called her and ran through some bits mostly her printer not working, dropping s back tomorrow and other bits.

We got onto r and talking about it, got into a point where w said its just never a good time as s is with me or with her. Said we can resolve that reasonably easily but if she just wants time she should just say (she brought up the talking thing anyway no didnt say that to her).

It wasn't a very cohesive call bounced here and there and I was just left feeling like w just wants out. Surprisingly my current feeling is one of fatigue if shes done why doesn't she just say if she isn't why is she making excuses, s is in bed by 8 she can come here, I can go there, he can stay at friends, gparents. Seems she's again using him as an excuse and thats not fair. Apropos nothing she said she wasn't just going to fade away, asked what she meant and she said now wasn't the time to talk....arghhhhhh

Anyway tried my best to stay in PMA and stfu mode which isn't easy right now. S is going back after 10 tomorrow, originally said 10 as that was w's preferred time but she said she's normally up early and taking some time to get going in the morning.

I'm very confused with what she wants right now, I go dark or as lrt as I can with s and she pings me on texts and emails and I reply and then she shuts down. I'm wary of pushing into pursuit but I get called on her printer and to tell me one of my favourite actors died (Leonard nimoy rip) I'm baffled does she want me to leave her alone or not. Why if she wants to talk is she so keen to put it off, and if she doesn't why bring it up in the first place?

Mmmm mmmm me is puzzled all me is bafflicated

Well s is in bed and I have a bottle of Cabernet rapidly vanishing here. Not helping but at least im relaxed!