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Yup v I know that feeling as you can see from the last few days posts here. I know certain things w is up to that I can't post here or how I know them and thats frustrating but got to be true to what I think is right. None include other people just a huge swing from how w was in our marriage, heyho. I can't change her.

Just playing the waiting game for her to find some time to talk now, she's got an open invitation to come here after s is in bed but of course I dont expect for one second she'll take me up on it nor for her to provide an alternative and nor will or can I chase her, sigh.

Other frustrations have been plaguing me of late too but not much I can do there either. So we do what we do, when s is here its good and I stay focussed on him tomorrow he's back to w so I'm off out for some smaller clothes and bits, fraid nothing exiting in my underwear shopping guys but the ones I have are now waaaayyy too big I'm also pricing up a nice black leather jacket if I can find one I like and some new trousers so I dont wear these jeans into the ground.

If nothing else I'll have my wardrobe updated at least until I need the next size down and then the next and then I'm at goal sounds easy if I say that fast enough.

Plenty of beaches down here v can't promise you'd want a picnic on them in this weather though. Nice resteraunt overlooking the beach though!