Top is still up on the car but I am enjoying driving it. I have posted very little this week as frankly I have been so low. Not Vanilla like at all.
The conversation about racism has knocked a big hole in my soul. Partly because I feel that the way that I understand this is contra to the way I live and breathe. I am unsure if this is one step too far for me.
Bestie took this very badly indeed and challenged H. She has been one of H greater supporters and in helping me hold myself together. No longer.
Bestie: I hear you say you are very racist and do not like blacks? is this correct? H: yes, those are my views Bestie: if you do not like blacks, that means that you do not like me? H: those are my views bestie: you have been round my house, gone for meals with us, met my family and you hold these views? H: yes Bestie: and I am V best friend H: yes
We all work in the same office!
Bestie has told me that she never wants any contact with H again.
My sitch is dragging me down and my PMA is really off.
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
