the XW came over a little early on Tues evening and we all watched Maleficence (sp?). she came in and immediately gave me a hug. the kids were back and forth to me and her. she did respect the fact that it was my night and did not try to interject herself in our routine which i appreciated and let her know. we watched the show after i got the kids and bed. we drank wine and flirted a little. she told me that the house search was not going as good as she'd like. i listened and let her know i knew she'd make a good choice. she asked to see some of the pics of the things we have done lately and asked me to text them to her (a lot of them had me in them). walked her out to her car to leave and we had a longer hug and she wanted me to kiss her forehead.
i did say something that she told me offended her. i immediately said i'm sorry and i didn't mean to offend her (male joke about a cousin that i got along with-guess she's sensitive to that). i reassured her that i like him and would never demean him intentionally. she accepted the apology and nothing else was mentioned.
her birthday is friday and i'm just gonna stop by and drop off the gifts the kids got for her. i have a card for her and i mentioned already the flowers i'm sending because her grandfather doesn't anymore.
she did mention some of the things that she has been up to lately with her friends and that she was happy to have her cousin tell her she looked so pretty in a pic she sent her. she mentioned how it felt good to "be enough and perfect the way i am". i just told her that i can understand that statement and i regret not sharing that sentiment with her enough.
who knows what will happen next. we'll see. the connection is still there and that's kinda frustrating but out of my hands.
M40 XW35 M11 T15 S9 D5 Bomb 6/3/14 Papers del 10/3/14 D final 12/5/14
I wish I could love you and make you believe it 'Cause that's all you ever wanted From me
