Thank you... Like i said. I am letting go not giving up! I am putting this into fates hands and i am ready to live for me and better myself and see what comes my way. I love her enough to let her go. and i really am at peace with it. thank you again.
You're very welcome. FTR, if you decide to make the military a career, talk about extended separations with any woman you consider marrying. Along with moving every 2-4 years...it's not for everyone and that's alright. But it's really crucial to know.
Also, your words above, ^^ could be your new mantra. It's close to what I told myself back in 2006-/08.
I'd carry around a few phrases that comforted and guided me, like short prayers & pep talks. Especially right before I thought h would contact me.
And,
I turned it over to God. Yes, sometimes I'd "take it back" from Him the next day, but the next day/hour, I'd force myself to again turn it over.
In the end, if we KNOW we have done our best to become our best, that just has to be enough.
Learning to let go and walk away with your head held high, at peace - regardless of outcome, is an incredible gift to give yourself.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016