Susana (6) - Feelin' Stronger Every Day

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Feeling pretty good about myself tonight.

H went out for drinks, no clue when he's coming back, but I've had a nice evening in on my own.

I do find it curious that last night I went out and got back much later than normal and he was still awake a long time past his bedtime...and tonight he's gone out and stayed out much later than normal... Maybe just coincidence though, who knows.

I am a little worried we're going to end up in a situation again where we're trying to out-GAL each other, like what happened a few weeks ago when I withdrew a bit and made myself GAL nearly every night. It was like we started egging each other on - I was going out more and more, so he was too, he stayed out later and later so I did too. It was exhausting.

But, tonight was fun. I went through my drawers and found some clothes I'd forgotten I owned. One red top in particular looks really good, and happens to match my nails. The post-BD weight loss has been really a really nice boost to my self image.

I cooked, which always makes me feel good. Made a new curry recipe, and lemon rice. Then I did some recipe development for a peanut butter company - double chocolate chip peanut butter coconut cookies. They are SO good.

But, if I keep eating them, I will undo all the post-BD weight loss.

I'll take some with me tomorrow when I go down to visit my friend, and I will probably give some to H to take to his college buddies' house over the weekend.

I want to be able to wear the jeans I just bought!