This need not be the end.

[Barry]

So W text me this evening asking if my open invite for some dinner out somewhere was still on as she'll come. I recieved this text whilst attending this new Emotional Wellbeing Course of mine...oh the irony.
We're now going out tomorrow night to a nice country pub that I know - we've never been there as a couple. I wanted somewhere new, our old life is gone.

I told her when I sent the invite that I don't want to talk about our sitch and that I had no expectations. Just two old friends, having some dinner together.

Guys, this is my time to pull all my s**t together. All of what I've read..both on here and in DB/DR/NMMNG, everything I've learned from this so far.
I feel ready to walk the talk. I did say as friends though, and I mean that.
IF we are ever to stand any chance, we need to at least be friends first.

Hey, for all I know? She could sit me down and tell me she's met someone but I don't think it is that. My gut says it's not anyway.

We haven't been together in the same room for more than 15 minutes since the 19th December and had so little contact that it may as well have been zero. In the grand scheme of things, it means nothing but it is a step for me nonetheless.

We have my D15's 16th Birthday on Monday, and we're going to see a musical (Wicked). My D has no idea. She's going to be so excited, she's wanted to see it for a year - since W and I went to see it with our friends. We were in the thick of piecing from separation 1 at the time so we didn't take her.

W said a while ago that she didn't want to go as she didn't want it to be awkward on D's birthday but I was firm in that she'll only be 16 once, we bought the tickets before all of this and I would like her to consider coming.

I think for W, tomorrow is really about seeing each other before Monday to ease things. I'll take that at this stage.

Barry.