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Thanks toots you are equally lovely

Been a pretty fun day with s, yes w has been playing on my mind. Suppose its just knowing about thing but ultimately as they say be careful what you wish for how many times have I said I just want to be able to know what direction w wants to go in? Yes, honestly I dont know and this negativity is just me projecting my fear (see I did listen to my councillor) if w wanted to just say nope done an email would have sufficed just fear nothing else.

What's next well all is done really apart from ending my wages into the joint account and yes I could do that its simply at the moment if I do it could leave w and s with no support (her works are being unhelpful about her exit I suspect someone somewhere is on a mission to drag it out) what else can I do well stop being so negative for a start! I have a nice home a good son who enjoys being with me I just miss my wife and the way our marriage was, I imagine me and every soul on this board!

I want another shot at my family being togethwr but this time us all sharing our time not w and s and me along for the ride sometimes.

I like the quote toots, thanks.

I'm really ok been in a bit of a funk last few days with a brief lift on the weight front but even that had me wondering who I could share that work with and have them notice. Ultimately im doing it for me I decided and I'm ok with that.

W finally acknowledging we need to talk I think caught me off guard today and then qualifying it with not knowing when and it not being something she's happy to go into by email set off my inner worryer again..fear.

Anyhoo have to go tuck in s before I can settle will post back a little later.