I know what you mean about the 'second guessing' - but on the plus side you're noticing it, you know it's not a great idea and you recognise that's not the guy you want to be, and you want to keep working on it - all good stuff.
The worst case scenario is worrying over it until you've convinced yourself it's all true, and are completely unaware that's what you've done.
Hope you had a good day Jim - sounds like you have an interesting few 'travel' days ahead?
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus