You are the only one who can control how this affects you. I believe every action you have taken has been with the idea the M was not over. You just could not accept it and you refused to detach. Even after signing the D, you continued doing what did not work.
So now, what is your next step?
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
