Absolutely right about the existing is tiring bit. Seems it comes in waves at times. I've just been hit by one this week. Still want w back as my my goal but not as we were just before bd, how we can be, her choice though.
Sounds like you have quite a bit going on in the spin dryer of the noodle today. Sending you positive vibes, up to you if a hug helps too
Take it easy matey, have a good night.
Edz
M:44, W:46, S:10 M 13 years, T 15 BD:23/7/2014 W/S Moved to MIL: 23/7/2014 My new place: 21/11/2014 W/S back to flat 22/11/2014 W coming closer, talking 4/2015 Piecing 5/2015 Moving in again 6/2015