TLEE86. Part III

[TLEE86]

She changed her mind. Said she knows that the path she's on is not healthy and what she is doing is not what is good for her. But she doesn't know if she's going to stay at her dads house (but doesn't want to because he won't let her keep the dog) or come here to Texas.

I am ok with her staying at her dads. They support our relationship and I think it would actually get her healthy. But...she said she's going to go back to Tennesse and get her dog and rethink everything she's doing. I am scared that when she goes back, this guy is going to be in her ear and she won't listen to me or her dad because were not there.
That she will fall back into the same routine of oh ill look for a job and do this and that all over again.

What triggered this, is her sister decided to say something to her roommate and ask what is going on and what not, and he blew up her phone and she blew up my phone. So basically, she's got him pulling her one way, and me pulling the other.

Honestly, all my fears and concerns that I expressed yesterday came true. Everything that you said C, I feared and its happened. W says she is going to seriously rethink everything. But I don't get it. Last night she texted me till 2am and even this morning, about sending her pictures of the house, what she is going to do with it, and etc etc.

All of a sudden, its...idk what I'm going to do. She and I are supposed to talk about this again later (I'm not holding my breath for it) and idk what to even say.

You just...CANT do this to someone. You told your H who you left that you are coming home, that you are sad about what happened, and then do a 180 and aren't sure anymore

Im sure all of you thought that my indecisive W would change her mind and she did. I just didnt wanna believe it. And after all her talk of the house, i just let my expectations get the better of me

On the bright side, she is actually entertaining the thought of coming home and recognizes where she is is not a healthy place. On the other side, she may very well just go back and continue the same path she's on, never knowing what to do because thats just her.

I feel like this is BD #2. I cant even describe what I'm feeling right now. But i seriously wish I had a bottle of jack and just go to sleep. Im so [censored] done.