Sandi, I understand that he doesn't have the energy to work on our relationship. I sent him a set of items regarding a controlled separation that I found online, and one of the items was in regards to doing work on our relationship. His response was that doing any "homework" was the last thing he needed. My response was to say that I agreed, that we needed time to just breathe. I am willing to do the work, and I am working really hard to not put any pressure on him. It is totally against my nature and instincts though. I want so badly to try to reason with him as to why he can't just quit on our family. But I know that will do no good. My strategy right now is to back off, not contact him unless necessary. But I want to be pleasant and friendly when we do communicate. I just don't know if he will follow through with his "announcment" about going to see a doctor. I Kind of doubt it.
Card, the last 24 hours have been a roller coaster ride. I cried myself to sleep last night, but tonight I am quite calm and almost content in bed watching my shows. I think I am struggling right now with the fact that I really miss him as my friend. I still love him so much, and I would love to just go to dinner with him. I am hoping that after another week i can start to work on starting to rebuild at least our friendship. I keep telling myself that if I focus on reconnecting instead of reconciling, things will be easier.
Me:30 H:31 D1 T: 7 years M: 3.5 years BD: 12/2014 3 month S starts: 2/2015
