Had a lovely evening with my friends. Although we somehow got into an argument with the owner of an Italian bar because we wanted decaf coffee. He was not impressed. He had decaf, but didn't want to make it for us. But it was like 10:30 at night, for Pete's sake!
Got back around midnight and thought H would be in bed because he usually turns in around 11, but he was still awake. Should have stayed out later!
He seemed really...indifferent? Like, at first he wasn't speaking to me so I left him alone completely and ignored him. He then got a bit chattier and we joked around for a few minutes and had a laugh, but he didn't ask me how my evening was, or who I met, although I asked him how his was (answer = boring, spent the evening on Facebook and watching TV lol) . I asked him if his friends were staying here this weekend or if he was staying at theirs, and mentioned I might not be here Friday night, he just said he was going to spend the whole weekend at his friend's, and didn't ask where I was going.
Then he just stared at me and didn't say a word so I decided I had to end it first and said good night and left the room.
I am really proud of myself and happy I went out tonight.
Wednesdays have always been our date night, and even since BD, we've always ended up spending Wednesday together apart from when he was on his ski trip, and one other week when I said I was going to yoga and he texted me later to say he'd made dinner plans with a guy from work (not saying it was because I made plans but it definitely seemed it).
We never discuss it but we seem to always end up doing something every Wednesday - from drinks to yoga class to geocaching to just having dinner at home.
But every Wednesday morning, I get nervous and wonder what's going to happen and basically end up spending the day wondering and waiting. And unable to make other plans. I'm so used to keeping Wednesdays free I automatically turn down or move all Wednesday invites.
Earlier this week, my friend asked me to come for dinner this Wednesday, and I hemmed and hawed. Eventually she said she understood my hesitation and I could join them depending on what happened with H and could decide on the evening, depending on whether he came home and said he had no plans or wanted to do something.
This morning, I thought eff it, I'm going to see my friends, I'm not going to sit around waiting and wondering all day about H. If he wants to do something, he can bloody ask me/make plans.
I can't sit around and wait for him forever.
So it was a little hard, but I put on those heels and I walked forward.
And I'm glad I did.
Last edited by susana4; 02/26/1512:42 AM.
Me 28 / H 28 M 1 / T 2.5 BOMB 12-3-14 "I don't feel like myself any more" Still living together, separate rooms.
Although we somehow got into an argument with the owner of an Italian bar because we wanted decaf coffee. He was not impressed. He had decaf, but didn't want to make it for us. But it was like 10:30 at night, for Pete's sake! 
lol) . I asked him if his friends were staying here this weekend or if he was staying at theirs, and mentioned I might not be here Friday night, he just said he was going to spend the whole weekend at his friend's, and didn't ask where I was going. 
