Thank you Gwen and Beatrice for your kind words and support, I really do appreciate it.

Beatrice – thank you for saying that about our MLC’er, I do often wonder if life is really as rosy as he makes out and if he is as happy with ow as he seems to be. I was interested about the emotional anchor – I have often pondered; if they come out of crisis and regret leaving, then do they really come to the thought that they can just contact the LBS even if they have not had much communication/or in some cases have spewed such venom. Do they really just decide to email/call out of the blue “hi, I miss you, I have been an idiot” or does the guilt and shame from causing such intense pain and destruction to a person they once loved stop them from coming forwards to see if they can repair the damage – especially if they can see that the LBS has got on with their life and no longer needs them – IDK – there is obviously a lot of study done on mlc and what possible outcomes there are, and I suppose all of us here start out as hoping we join the statistic of the ones who manage to stay the course and successfully repair/renew their marriage – but is this scenario the minority I wonder. I see a reunion with my h as unlikely - but not impossible. I miss him in my life, it is like a bereavement but worse, as on top of it I have to deal with the rejection and replacement, which for me has been so painful – physically, emotionally and mentally. A true broken heart.

My Chapter 2 is coming to a close – and what an adventure it has been!

My belonging were picked up today and will be shipped when I have a new address in NZ.

I have booked my flight – 16th March, lands 18th March – another 28hr flight ugh. Going via Singapore this time – not been there before …not that I will see outside the airport lol.

I have a place to stay for the first week to get over jet lag and then I have to find somewhere for a couple of weeks before my rented room is available.

In the meantime a mini adventure awaits me as I am leaving the village on Monday 2nd, I am going to Cardiff to meet my girlfriend and then we are going to London for a few days to do all the touristy things (and hopefully Tea at the Ritz – which for those following my journey know is on my bucket list :o) ) then back to Cardiff. I have a gap of 5 days before I go and see another girlfriend in Norwich, then onto Essex to see an old friend of my h (she is shocked by what he has done and is doing) before heading to the Airport on the 16th. I have no idea what I am doing for the 5 day gap – one thing I have learnt about myself since coming here is that I don’t need to plan my life with military precision as something is always around the corner and I should not worry – so with that in mind, I am sure inspiration will occur and I will find somewhere interesting to go.

Feelings wise – I am sad to be leaving my friends, old and new. I have had a brilliant time and have learnt so much about myself – probably more in the past 3 months than the whole of my life! I also know that anything my h does is going to hurt no matter where I am in the world, so I need to get on with my life and keep faith that in time the feelings for him will lesson. I do still feel strongly about him, I sometimes feel I am living in a dream and when I wake my stomach lurches and I feel physically sick at the thought of spending the rest of my life without him – and even more nauseated at him being with someone else and with all that entails. However – I have a sneaky bit of excitement at moving back – having my own space (eventually), I have even bought a few bits and pieces for it, girlie things that I know h would not have seen the point of :o) I am optimistic that I will find work before I run out of funds – and as my new mantra is Calm and Simple I am not worrying about it, something will come along, it will all be ok.

I did the grown up thing and went to say goodbye to my brother (who has not spoken to me since I left the house). I even acknowledged his partner in the street with a "Good Morning" she just walked past me blankly - but at least I made the effort so can leave with my head held high.

Life and fortunes could change at any moment – just by talking to someone, being in the right place at the right time or helping someone out, no one knows what is around the corner.
I hope around your corner is a good life, good health and good fortunes –