Mighty, You have every right to be angry. Your xh dropped the bomb a year ago, had an ow, she got pregnant, he's living next door, he attempts to reconcile (so to speak) and now the baby is his and he's as confused as a twirling top that can't stand up straight. He's upset your apple cart, not once, but twice and now you are attempting to find your footing again. Heck yes, you should be angry about how things have gone down...but this is also part of the grieving process and it does take time. I have been sitting here waiting for that angry to appear and you need to get it all out there so that you can feel better. You will notice that this anger will spur you on in the days ahead. Feel that anger and then let it go. Each time you have this happen, you'll move a little bit further on down the road.
Right now, you are finally grieving for the old marriage and yes, what could have been. It all takes time. Be gentle w/yourself and take each day as it comes. No one is expecting you to be happy all of the time and you shouldn't expect yourself to be that way either.
If you want to talk or have someone to email with, Heather has my email address and home number. I would be happy to chat w/you and maybe help you release some of that anger. It's up to you.
Please be gentle w/yourself. You are not a super human and yes, you do have feelings and have been hurt very badly.
Take care.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
