I'm afraid I'm always going to be so god damned Piscean that, despite knowing my love is wasted on someone that never compromised with me and ultimately completely disrespected and abandoned me in the end, I'm always going to subconsciously feel that I'd rather be alone without the other half of me than be with anyone else. He fills the void and everyone else emphasizes the gap.

Right now it's a "life is unfair, but it is what it is" feeling. I know I deserve better, however I can see this feeling lasting - because I'm melodramatic and prone to feeling everything to the very depths of my soul.

Deeper, when it's love, which I believe is unconditional.

Le sigh. I know the path through this is a marathon and not a sprint, but....

ME: 38
BF: 40
T: 10y, no kids, no M (by choice)
BD: 7/14/14, BF admits to PA, wants out, lies about new R.
10/1/14: I move out, BF lies about move in with OW
12/4/14: OW confronted, reveals all the lies