Card29 X - Let It Be

[Marylov]

Thanks Card. You are right, I really don't have the stomach to think that far in advance right now. My H just moved out and you are right, the pain comes sometimes so suddenly that I feel I can't breathe. But then I have moments where I feel almost positive, sure that everything will still somehow work out between us. I just can't give up hope, even though I know it may seem foolish. But even if I have hope, I still have to learn to detach. Even right now, I am so tempted to send him a text, telling him I love him and miss him. Because I do. I miss him so much. But as I've read others say, he knows that. Me reminding him of that won't do anything but give him a chance to ignore me. And yes, this holiday season was just...terrible. And since it was my D's first Xmas...it just made it seem that much worse bc it was supposed to be lovely. Sorry for this sad rant, but I am having a low moment