Masterpiece still in progress...

[Jer2911]

KML -- I love that idea... Unfortunately, for this weekend, W is going out of town for her brother's wedding celebration (he and his partner actually exchanged vows over the summer in a private ceremony and this weekend is a big celebration that includes the entire family)... a wedding celebration that I was un-invited to by my W. Her brother and his partner want me to be there -- my name was on the invitation. Her family loves me and considers me to be a part of the family. None of them are happy about this situation... But what they think or feel doesn't matter to her right now.

So I will have a weekend without her here, but I'll still be in charge of all of the kids on my own... which isn't a big deal -- I can handle the kids... Remember -- we had 10 days without her here a few weeks back and we all did just fine... But it's not the break that I need in terms of a break from everything like you described...

But that is a good idea and maybe I'll try to do something like that soon.

For now I'll just look forward to some time without her here in the house this weekend.

Just got home from a wonderful dinner related to some of the work that I do -- can't go into details, but was basically a dinner celebrating the success of something that I helped design (okay -- will take the credit -- the entire model is my design) that is in the process of growing and becoming a really interesting model for learning. For me personally it was an evening of strong affirmation of my ideas, knowledge, and skills -- and it's been a while since I've felt that on a professional level.

When I got home, W asked how it was and I told her... I hadn't actually told her that in December I was invited to serve on the school board for this so that was a surprise to her. She acted happy for me and was somewhat interested in hearing about my thoughts on the evening and my happiness about the success of all of this (my happiness at seeing an idea that I had grow into a viable model for learning beyond the traditional school model) -- but there was definitely some distance and her interest was not at the level it used to be pre-BD. BUT -- at least she did express some interest... any interest is more than I expected given the circumstances.

Regardless of what she might really think about me or my happiness with regard to this -- for me it was a great evening and makes me feel very successful professionally even if it doesn't translate to making any money (because it doesn't -- I work in public education... not a great place for making big bucks.) For a couple of hours I was able to focus on something other than the sad situation at home, and that felt REALLY good.