Gogofo - Learning to go dark

[gogofo]

So I have been trying to remain upbeat and happy around her. Want her to see what she will be missing. I also need to separate my feelings and trying not to read more into the situations we spend together.

I know I am still attached. This is obvious in the fact that I get some peace and hope of the fact of possibly dating her again. I know I need to work on this because my heart wants to take her out on a date the first weekend in March. So let me have the 2x4s about this one because I best get messages this way.

Our interactions together have changed too. We signed off on the house today and went for a little ride and had dinner as a family after. I wouldn't say we are flirting but we have been teasing each other with funny honest slightly mean statements. We used to do this previously in our R when we were good.

This also is an issue for me in reading too much into these interactions.

I know what I haven't done is try to push the situations or her like I had in the past.

Tomorrow is her birthday and I am not invited to attend her family dinner. Doesn't hurt, but just seems awkward. I may have to go to dinner with a friend.

Now you can slap me around but I have earrings that I planned on giving her for her birthday that I bought before Xmas. I think I am going to give them to her by leaving them in her room with a note. Something along the line of "I had these for your birthday and I still want you to have them." No pressure, no anticipated reaction. I really do want her to have them and don't expect anything to change or for her to even address it.

I plan on laying low the next couple of days and pull back since she has seen enough of me for a while and we have been having good interactions.