Masterpiece still in progress...

[Jer2911]

Sooo... W just came downstairs before leaving for work... walked into the office and stood behind me... I turned around and it was apparent that she wanted to talk... I had my walls up ready for battle... Her walls were up too -- at first...

We ended up having a long, tear-filled conversation about everything -- our past, our current situation, our feelings, our anger, how much we are both hurting, and so much more... Lots of crying... Some holding of hands and hugging (at times each of us taking the initiative)... and ending with a really long and tight hug...

Still heading towards separation, but it's the first time in months that I felt like I was having a conversation with my W and not an MLCer or Monster...

She is definitely having or at the beginning of a nervous breakdown. Doesn't change the fact that she wants us to separate/divorce -- but for the first time in months I feel like we were both really talking to one another from the heart and really hearing each other.

Unless she was faking all of this as well -- but I don't think she was based on how she broke down at times during the conversation...

I really do need to get out of this house so we both have the space we need to heal and move forward. I still have full faith that God is working on this situation -- working on both of us --- but I also think we need the space and time away from each other for her to really miss me. Maybe I'm wrong about that -- but either way, the space from each other is needed in order for us both to continue healing.