Time is on my side! The good thing about lbs... We are able to use the time starting at the bottom and work up. Poor mlcer a have an entire tunnel to dig through befor they can start to climb up.
I am doing much better. Think I'm re hitting some anger stage. My stages are a little different this time around. However, it's like a pinball machine inside me, and every time the ball hits, I feel a different emotion. Yet, overall- much better.
All the details and nonsense don't consume me. I just don't care anymore. It's like I just dropped it all, like dead weight.
Observation... Haven't had much contact w xh. Since I made it clear I am not engaging in petty or unnecessary communication, I think he is having a hard time coming up with anything to communicate about. Or- he doesn't want to. I don't know, but either way, I prefer nothing.
He stayed at bil last night. I got a text from him ranting about something with s17. Something he is complaining about... Which if here were at the house I would engage in a discussion, but it is pointless. He sees the kids for "fun" things when he wants. He has no "home" to take them to. No real impact on child rearing other than "having a talk" then dropping them off.
I didn't see the text for a few hours, as it was charging in my room. The kids and I spent the afternoon & evening together and I wasn't going to be distracted. I read it at like 2:30 this morning. I did not respond. It's not necessary.
This morning I was running late. Xh was in the driveway waiting for s17 as he takes him to school. When I was going to my car, I actually waved. He yelled out if s17 was up. I say yes and that he has to move bc I was leaving. He yelled out again, this time agitated, if s17 was up. I said, yes, and that I answered him, and to pls move.
He did and that was that. But for someone restarting a fancy r, you'd think he'd be a little happier.
Oh well, not my gig. I've got me on my mind.
Oh... S17 is officially s18 today! Yikes! That one is hitting me!!! I can't believe it.
