Complex #5 - progress and throwbacks

[Complex]

Thanks for the advice guys. I'll be cautious, with FIL contact and my feelings.
There was a little shine of hope yesterday and today. But in a more positive way than ever. More of a hope that I can be the person that I wang to be, that I COULD be the person that she wouldn't leave or only a fool would. Confidence paired with healthy expectations/ no expectations regarding R is the way to go.
Only thing I really need is TIME. The more the better. Hoping W isn't going to file right after I receive my greencard in a month or two. It would truly shatter family too..sounds like they all tell her not to rush into D. Hopefully that'll buy me some more time. But in the end I'm sure she'll make her own decisions. It's her life.

Bought new workout clothes. Gym now. And I found a possible volunteer opportunity. Helping abandoned children age 2-18 in an institution where they are taken care of. Sounds great.
I doubled the Prozac dose today which my doctor told me after 10-14 days. So far feeling better. Side effects are driving me crazy since almost 2 weeks. It was completely out of control all symptoms, got almost intolerable. but now I feel great. Evenings I'm usually on fire ..

Thanks again.