Matt, my kids are the same. They want to see me happy. They would be completely on-board if I started dating. They also know my reasons for waiting.
That's a really good question you asked about SS, and whether he knows he is still the excuse. At one point, I had said to H, "SS and I have forgiven each other and apologized. We have worked it out and moved on. Why haven't you?"
H didn't have an answer other than the default "too much damage" thing.
I hope someday H will come to accept himself, love himself, and be at peace. He was very good to us before he couldn't be anymore.
M44, H44, both M before M4 yrs, T6 BD 7/13 ILYB something isn't right with me H att suicide 2/14 S 4/14 OW disc 5/14 D final 4/15
