Life 2.0 Pt 5

[NH115]

Nothing really new to report. We had an OK weekend. Our MC session was tense.

Familiar pattern was followed; OK during the day, not so much at night when things started to wind down.

Her basic rhetoric now is that she feels lost and disconnected; not just from me but from her friends as well. She went out with her married friends this weekend, and felt isolated from them because they seem all happy in their Ms and she's not. She's not angry (for the moment), but just has lost her emotional connection and therefore attraction for me. In MC she said that she would love nothing better than to get that started again, but she doesn't know how or if it's even possible. I'm glad she wants to, but wanting is not enough.

She basically treats me like a friendly roommate a good portion of the time. If there's any affection, it's usually initiated by me. Sex is just plain off the table right now. She's not angry or cruel, but she just keeps her walls up with me.

Is initiating affection even a good idea? I want to continue with the love tank, but I don't want to encourage cake eating; It seems to me that she wants a husband around to keep the bed warm, fix things, help with the kids, but she doesn't seem to want to act much like a wife. Not just sex, but general warmth.

I mentioned dopamine and she did take the initiative to Google that. Would it be a good idea to encourage her to read about PEA? If it is, does anyone have a link to something not overly scientific that she can read?

Just keeping myself as cool as possible, concentrating on GAL:

Getting my flight instructing business organized into a real business and not just a hobby that pays

Fitness, fitness, fitness. Training for the marathon relay in March

Finding things to do with the kids.

Reading and listening to everything on self-improvement I can find.