Devotion To A Dream

[phunguy]

I need to accept that I am where I am, that I can save this M even though she has cheated and I need to accept that I need to move forward with or without her. I know I've been bargaining and trying to control things in the house by not detaching enough and it probably makes her feel stuck and smothered by my neediness. I need to be an attractive man that is standing up in the face of his wife's A and as Sandi so eloquently reminded me, to have a pair! Not letting it get me down and that I am not going to sit around like a love sick puppy. I need to accept that I cannot shoulder all the burdens of our relationship and shift a large portion of that to her, so that she can feel some of this responsibility figure out her own work/life balance not depend on me and feel some pain in all of this, that she has now pushed me away. I need to GAL!

I thought I was but I realize these last few weeks have been relative baby steps compared to what I am going to do in the up coming days, I will make plans for just about everyday to be out and about. I will be mysterious about who I will be with and I will be having a PMA!