Seperated, she is with someone - I'm desperate (2)

[vdubber]

Thanks for the confirmation Toots. I believe I read this in DR also. Yes I actually have typed up a couple emails and jot sent them but seems safer to put together a long letter just unloading my feelings so I can somehow feel I finally shared them and then save the letter but definitely not send it. I hope it will help me get past some of the hurt and frustration II feeling as I honestly think we did not try together to resolve things when they started going bad. I realize that I just need to accept that there are any things I will never know. Anyway...just need to take steps forward and hopefully the backsliding will continue to lessen with time.