Thanks for the reminder that this really isn't about me. So hard to remember that when Monster starts spewing... She wants it to be all about me, but I know it's not. I know that when I am out of this house, even if initially she feels free and happy, that eventually her issues/demons will return and she will realize that she's still not happy... I want to believe that she will start to feel even more unhappy because of the mess she's made of her life, but at moments I am beginning to question whether or not she has the capacity to realize it.
I am definitely trying very hard to just give all of this to God with the faith that he has a good plan for all of us going forward and that there is a reason for all of the pain that I am enduring right now. I do feel more grounded and more at peace when I do pray -- so I do spend a LOT of time in prayer these days!
And I stand behind everything I said about 25-year old OW compared to me... no contest! :-)
Me 48, Her 50 (Same-Sex Couple) 3 Children Together: 9.5 years before BD BD: Week of 10/27/14 ExW started EA w OW 9/2014 ExW married OW 12/2015
