The END Hopefully they live happily ever after....

[DFE]

Huge setback today. Is it still a setback even if you aren't trying to put the karruagr back together ? I'm starting to realize that maybe this relationship was never meant to me. Maybe the kids were the best thing that came out of this union.

I got into it with him today over text. He was trying yo be nice and cone by and help kd shovel the snow. I said I took care of it already which he said why. Then he said what do you get out of being a bitch to me. In his defense I was being cold but it's because I feel he is trying to be my friend to rid himself of any guilt. If you wanted to be my friend it would have been whole we were married. I let him have it over text. Told him he wasn't worthy of my friendship and that we just need to be cordial for the kids but nothing more.

I feel abandoned by him but all he's done is not live me anymore. What am I so mad about? Why can't I be his friend? He is trying so hard to be friends but in my eyes it's to take away any guilt he has. All my friends say he's cake eating. I've always let him get off easily. I don't feel he should get off easily with this one. You walked out on your family. I know I'm supposed to make interactions nice so he misses me but I've been nice enough. Too many years of BS with him.

So why do I feel such guilt? Was I wrong for chewing him out? I don't think I can be his friend although it's the mature thing to do. Thoughts? I hate fighting with him. I get such anxiety and depression. Why?