In my life experiences, I've seen evil and I've watched people I love with everything in my soul...I've watched them turn away from love and choose to get high. I've seen it eat at their personalities until you couldn't even recognize the person they used to be.
Wonka, it has to be evil. Why? Because, otherwise, it was ME. I wasn't enough. I can't go there anymore. I refuse to go there.
I didn't deserve the people I love to leave anymore than someone deserves a loved one to die in an accident.
And, to watch my children suffer? Have scars that will remain with them forever?
It's human nature to try to understand WHY? This is my way. It helps me from beating myself up anymore. I've been there, done that. Enough. I have the t-shirt.
I will check out the book.
IF you check out the Don't Be Afraid of the Gift God Gives sermons. Also, take a listen to Don't Let the Devil Ride by Neil Robeson :-)
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
