I'm so sorry. It's like anothe BD when these things happen and it brings back all the pain and hurt. You know that stuff like that may have been happening, but awful to see it in black and white and read all that was said. And know that a colleague had read it too - ugh. A few months ago - when I was deleting old texts, I discovered one where H had told me beforehand about a lecture he was going to with an old friend. It was only with the benefit of hindsight, that I knew on that night he was with OW.
It was horrible as he added lots of stuff about how nice it had been to see this guy and catch up and so on. It just hurts to read this stuff. BUT - do bear in mind that this is all history and it was all written a year ago when your W was probably deep in fog, lying to you, cheating and generally wayward....
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
