I underestimated how hard it would BE to become what I envisioned. Doesn't mean I have regrets or won't get there, I just made the faulty assumption that following my vision/my purpose meant it would be easy sailing.

For years and years, decades, I prayed for something more than the life I had with Smokey. I prayed and envisioned the car I'm driving now...literally, envisioned myself sitting in a car of the same color with the same interior...it's eerie how close this vehicle is to what I imagined. I envisioned myself living somewhere like I live with mountain views...I prayed to be unhitched from someone who was content with a much different life than what I wanted.

I remember writing in journals, years ago, praying for the salary I have now. Praying hard for the things I have now.

What I didn't prepare myself for...the challenge of becoming the person I envisioned. Because it means letting go of old habits and ingrained beliefs. It's a process.

"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man

“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson