I didn't know I was so far gone. I tend to dig around in my memories a lot these days, and I realize now that the W was talking about divorce since the summer! She was actually describing how we would go our separate ways, and that she would even help me find someone else--WTH? I don't know what's wrong with me, but I am really afraid now. How could I have been so oblivious? I was doing better since the start of that year, but apparently was also doing worse at the same time. How is this possible? Was I becoming unstable? Will need to discuss in IC.
The same was happening to me a few months ago. I would dig into old emails and find red flags that I had missed. A week before meeting OM, for instance, she wrote me she was miserable and would like to know a way to take a break from each other. I had completely missed that. Why? Because we're overly confident. It can't happen to us. It's just daily grudge, these things come and go, it's part of an argument, etc. Many of us find the signs leading to S after the fact. That's why I've started to be more blunt with friends about the red flags in their relationships.
M39 D6 D3 (at S) S 2014-09 D 2016-09
"You can't start a fire sitting around, crying over a broken heart" - Bruce Springsteen.
