Thanks uR. He is a mess. I know he makes me feel a jittery and messed up inside, but I feel mentally stronger. His actions don't bother me so much. It is just this panicky stuff when I are him.
You are right; I need to be confident. Right now, I just want to steer clear. I guess bc I do get so jittery.
I can do this. I'm not sweating them anymore. I don't want that mess. I know that for sure. I feel better having checked out.