Hey sweetie. You keep giving him all this power. He has done the worst to you and you have lived through it. He cant hurt you unless you allow it. Dont.
And yes, it often is worse when they jump back in the tunnel. He is a mess, Mighty.
He wanted it all. He isnt liking that he cant have it. Too bad for him.
You gotta get angry a bit here. You have to set your shoulders when you see him. Walk with confidence because you didnt do a thing wrong. You have no reason to hide.
I remember when I was going through this. I would prepare myself when I would see him. I would picture it all in my head. How I would act. It helped.
And when I would see him, I exuded confidence, even when I didnt always feel it. Because there was no way he was going to take one more thing from me. No freakin way.
He made his choice for now, Mighty. That is a house of cards. But that isnt your problem. He made the mess, now he has to live with it.
He isnt worthy of you. Dont give him any control. None. Take it back. Fake it til you make it.
