Susana (5) - Stay the Night

[susana4]

So, I'm home now, H was out when I got back as expected. Will probably head to bed early tonight, because i'm really tired after not sleeping much last night, and because I would rather avoid him today.

I think it's good for both of us to have some space to think and be on our own after. And I'm still reeling today (and don't want to put myself in a position to interact with him until I feel more stable, am hoping I will feel more so tomorrow).

I know it's silly when all the tickle fights and recent flirtation/near kissing/"dates" & general atmosphere seem to point in this direction, but I am still in shock about ML. I just really didn't think that would happen, given how many opportunities have arisen and H has always stopped himself.

I still have so many mixed feelings about it, but I am going to try and put my feelings behind me (not good for detaching) and go into observation mode.