Seperated, she is with someone - I'm desperate (2)

[vdubber]

Constant reminders. Today a ring arrived that I ordered for her about 2 months ago. Yes when I was in the get everything for her mode. I now have a while pile of stuff in a box that will never see the light of day. Ugghhh..

meeting my colleague for a drink later this evening in fact he wants me to run some errands with him this afternoon so I probably will to kill the time.

I shouldn't let it bother me but my S18 told me today that last night FIL watched the little kids and WAW has asked him to watch them tonight. He knows he has to watch them at her house. That means on her week with kids she gets them all week just before daycare closes at 8pm just in time to take them home and put them to bed and then arranges babysitters for the weekend nights so she can go out. I need to let it go, if her time is more important than time with her kids that's the choice she makes. Remember I have no control and I can choose whatever relationship I want with kids independent of her choices.

Is it bad that I wish she had been issued a DUI last night? Probably so but she needs to face the consequences of her actions which include alcoholism...I was amazed she past the breathalyzer test but then I don't know what she did last night while her dad was babysitting.

Ok enough dwelling on her and her choices. I'm more disappointed than anything as it proves to me where she is currently placing her values and i don't agree with it but again....I need to stfu up and deal with it.