Devotion to a dream...

[phunguy]

Thanks Toots. I cannot thank you and the others here enough for all the support. I'm not comfortable speaking with people I know about this some how I feel shame in all of this. I know I've made mistakes but I feel like a complete failure. This board has been my outlet. I can't express where I'm at verbally this helps me get it out. Im reading chapter 10 again and trying to remain hopeful for tomorrow but I am also trying to be realistic that it's probably over. It hurts to even type that out. But that is the place, the start.