Was the past 18 years just a waste?

[June315]

This is where I'm at trying to enjoy being happy without my W living at home, it's very hard for me right now because we did everything together. Even this morning I just took my younger kids to school and because we work in hospitals shift work we get days off together and normally I take them to school, get us coffee and come home and we hang out for awhile together in the mornings. The GAL things is something that I need to do and hopefully it helps you become more happy also as this rough time goes on. [/quote]


I feel that even if I don't really feel happy, I need to fake it around my H. The other day I came home from a tough day at work. he was home in bed, I had to force myself a big smile and not rant about work.