I feel your pain. I don't even know if or when the S happens with me, if I 'd be able to stand it. My life is so intertwined with him. I don't even know if any of us know who we are really.But I am trying to get this in my little head, " I am the only one who can make me happy".

So, Mary You are the only one who can make yourself happy

Me 44; H 48
no kids together; H has D24, D19
M 14; T 18
DB 12/21/14
living together (for now)