Barry, I'm loving to read this - and pleased to meet Barry the racing driver. Good for you - sounds like you are managing to get yourself to a much more positive place.
And whilst you are in no way doing this for your W - it's so much more attractive!
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We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus