Just an update...w is still talking in riddles, she made a comment that she lives here, her clothes are here and she comes here to wash and iron clothes (her choice, I've been managing fine ) and she makes sure she does it before I get chance. The only thing she doesn't do is sleep here. She also makes a point of coming here when she knows il be here, it used to be the opposite.
She also makes sarcastic remarks about my cleaning, my cleaning is quite good and I detect her remarks have a touch of resentment. All this tends to happen early in the week before she has contact with om, the second half of the week after work contact with om she becomes more distant.
GAL and detaching are going well, still get the full range of emotions through the day , sad, hurt, angry, self blaming etc mainly when I wake in the morning but I fight it off easier these days, my main thoughts to do this are :
I'm a good honest hardworking father who somewhere along the line took my relationship for granted ,
I won't make the same mistake again,
Even if w don't get the benefit of a better me, someone will and so will I,
It was w choice to go this route all alone,
Om isn't a better person, just someone who sleeps with married women, it makes him all the more of bottom feeder when you consider his mother done the very same thing, so he should know exactly what my family is going through yet he persists on perusing w.
That's the part that makes me so angry that I want to hurt him, I won't but it doesn't stop me thinking about it sometimes, I hope w will see through him for her own sake at least.......
