barely holding on - 7

[u-turn]

Starsky -you seem to know what's going on with my situation more than I do sometimes. Thank you.

She may only be thinking of herself right now and how she let herself down. Last night she did talk to me a little about this and said "I felt strong today and I realize that I have not been. I have let myself down".

She has started working at the new facility and this is hopefully going to help her focus her attention on new things. There is a lot of responsibility there and may not be the free-for-all as it seemed to be at the old facility.

She is indicating that she wants to make us work. She asked again if we can - and I told her it will take work from both of us. she agreed.

I said that I want to do this the right way - she agreed.

I am nervous about all of this - it has been what I wanting, BUT just as I feel like I am finally functioning again (at least at an 85% level). I feel good about myself, I am happy and busy, my clients are trusting me again, I am working well, I am enjoying teaching again, I am not depressed or emotional, My kids see me functioning and I can actually visualize myself moving on without her and being just fine.

I don't want this to be fake and I don't want to be broken again.