Okay -- getting over my moment of anger about the card... it truly is "whatever"
Have noticed the last few days that W is looking much older now in the face... It seems like she's sleeping a lot more, but maybe she isn't -- she is sleeping in later, but I'm not staying up all night trying to monitor whether or not she is up all night... so maybe she is and I just don't know it. I'm too busy trying to make sure that I sleep very well every night so that I have the energy I need to tackle the next day.
Anyway -- I do notice the change in her appearance... I'll never know for certain, but wondering if it's stress, depression, lack of sleep, all of the above... Makes me sad though because she doesn't see me as someone she can reach out to or trust to be there for her through this. In the past, we both took the "in sickness" part very seriously and would do what we could for each other regardless of whether it was just a cold or something more severe (or stressful like our pregnancies). I just have to let her deal -- or not deal in this case -- with this on her own, and all I can do is keep a lot of prayer around her for healing.
Anyway -- it is my birthday and I just spent most of the morning at the DMV getting my new license... It's a really muggy, gray day (rain on the way), so not sure what I'm going to do today -- but I know that the weather can and will bring me down, so I need to figure this out and do something good for myself before the kids get home from school... :-)
Me 48, Her 50 (Same-Sex Couple) 3 Children Together: 9.5 years before BD BD: Week of 10/27/14 ExW started EA w OW 9/2014 ExW married OW 12/2015
