You're doing great, Susana! Just keep being your best happy self, let him get a glimpse and come toward you. His pullback isn't anything you caused or can pull him out of - one of these wise vets said something about how he just doesn't know. All you can do is take care of you and let him come to the 'fool' realization if that's going to happen.
Re your tickle fights - we ML (euphuism for the more heated version) a few times during our separation, mostly begun in drunkenness. And then eventually the kissing and emotion started to happen. He wasn't as emotionally divorced as he wanted to be and I count this as a paver in the path back. (Path back to misery currently, but hey.)
The same advice everyone's been beating me over the head with - give yourself some space so you're not hanging on his every word and action. Enjoy your GALing!
Mid 30's Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH D 9/15; NC forever on
